I'm tired

That's all I have to say about it all.

I'm so tired.

Had a lovely weekend, mostly made up of entertaining the children - swimming with baby girl and her brother, Santa's Grotto visits and Sunday lunch. X Factor final night... two drunken boys coming home late on Saturday night. A slight hiccup with my medication.

And I'm exhausted.

J has gone back to work today after his sabbatical from work. It's gone far too fast, and I miss him already. I'd got used to having him around and relying on him. It was very difficult seeing him go off this morning, and I might have cried a little bit, which probably made it even harder for him (sorry, dude).

It's going to be a long week if it continues like this.

Oh, and it's my birthday on Saturday.

All the others

Wow, what a weekend - we've been here, there and everywhere doing everything Christmassy... I've loved it! Though I'm paying the price a little for it now.

I've taken my doctor's advice and stopped pushing myself, so I'm feeling a lot better in terms of hip pain and tiredness. But now I'm noticing all the other things... it never stops!

On Saturday I was out with my friend G and in the wheelchair for most of the day. That night, though she didn't let on, I know G was suffering with sore arms from pushing me around all day. Yesterday I managed on my two crutches (called Mark and Owen!) but by the end of a busy day leaning on them, my hands and arms were agony!

I've lost track of what I'm taking my medication for - my cancer, the pain from the tumours, or the new aches and niggles!