Hi, I'm Emmy's friend Gemma. I'm sitting beside Emmy right now and she's going to dictate to me as I type...
I've asked Gemma to type for me as it's taking me quite a while to type at the moment, and I keep getting my words jumbled. My fingers aren't working with my brain and doing as they're told. In fact, nothing's working with my brain and doing as it's told. My brain's being overrun by the tumour at the moment. When I speak my words are jumbled, but Gemma's ironing them out for me and making it all make sense!
I've been in hospital for a week or so as I started having some fits. We think the doctors have the right medication to keep them under control for now, but it's been a scary few days. I don't know what's happening when I have a fit, and it makes me forget the previous few hours. After a fit it takes me a little while to regain my sight properly and just get back with it. But hopefully they're more under control now anyway.
I'm so pleased to be home. I didn't see much of my little girl while I was in hospital, so I've spent a lovely evening cuddling her and putting her to bed. It's also nice to be home so my dad can relax better knowing I'm under his watchful eye. A couple of times, when I fitted during the night, my dad was called because I asked for him, so I know he won't have been sleeping properly and I worry about him. That might sound mad, but if I can't worry about my own family then who can I worry about!?
We did have some plans this Easter weekend... J and I were going to take mini me to London for the day to show her the sights. I want to take her on the Eye as she loves being up high and pretending to fly. A lot of that now depends on how I'm feeling... and the weather! I hope it holds out so we can get out and about, even if it's just into Cambridge if I can't manage London.
I do have more that I want to say but I'm struggling to get my words out to Gem, I'm tired... and I think some of it I'd just like to try to write myself some day... if you can bear with me and my jumbled brain, that is. So I will be back - I don't plan on going back into hospital anytime soon!
